Mission Impossible?
Can happiness be taught?
Can self acceptance be a constant?
I’m not sure, but I know my mission is bigger than making you buy pretty things I make. And that’s not to diminish their value or how great they are for your life, but the theme of inside first has been present in my life for a long time.
Nothing would have changed in my life if I did not look inside first. There was lots of inner work that had to be done. Looking back I can see my evolution evident by the changes in mindset between my books Prose and Cons and In Bloom. I was constantly looking to quiet the noise in my life and after many negative life experience that could have broken me, I chose to use them to hack my happiness level.
Lately I find myself in that place again and with it, I have an overwhelming need to bring others along with me.
The internet is proof, we are so polarized we are willing to see the the planet disintegrate, our health decline, just to stick to our guns (literally and figuratively) so we don’t see the other side win.
We need more happiness. We deserve to have peace. We need to share and receive more love.
Is it a lofty goal?
Yes
Is it ambitious?
Yes
But as I sit and reflect on my life and my journey, as I sit in these activations like the Creator Lab this week, I realize I don’t have a passion to sell more stuff or just have more people following me to follow me and boost my ego
I want more happy people in this world, more people that are able to lead with love and compassion because they have created that safe space within and if I can do that by sharing my experiences and insights, then I am happy to.
I want to be a resource, I have learned so much about creating sustainable joy and peace within over the past few years and as our world, the climate, and socioeconomic status gets more turbulent it is so important to foster that joy within.
When I went through my second heartbreak 12 years ago, I started to realize a trend. My emotions were up and down when I was in a relationship but consistently on the rise when I was single. Rather than just accepting it as “just the way it is” I decided to dig deeper into why. I found answers in the way I was willing to sacrifice parts of myself and how eventually that would backfire. I needed to learn a lot about myself and my boundaries to experience love and not succumb to it, more on that later.
7 years ago I tried to run from my problems and start over in a new country and realized whatever I don’t heal will follow me wherever I go. Another heavy revelation but it gave me a good starting point in figuring out my mess.
Since then I have been on a mission to define happiness for myself, right now, in the present moment. Not when I have THE job, not when I meet THE person, and not when I am in the perfect place.
When I transformed my inner world my outer reality transformed. When I monitored the voice and language I was speaking to myself in more good things bloomed.
It has taken a lot of inner work and healing but I am happy to say that my mental state, happiness level, and inner peace has been a constant rather than sudden bursts that rise and fall depending on my circumstances.
So let’s talk about it. In the coming weeks I will be sharing more of my story, my thoughts and the resources that helped me transform my life.
There is a plethora of people wanting to teach you how to make 6 and 7 figures on line, which is great, we all need money to survive in this society but I want to encourage you to heal and find something deeper first so that all your love and success will be sustainable.